Wow… It’s been such a long time since I’ve indulged myself in the art of blogging. Haha. Yes!! It has been a long long time in which I’ve never had the motivation nor the time to sit and blog peacefully, things that come in my mind. Whereas now I feel like doing it. I don’t know why.

Well, now there is a gap of about 2-3 months in my life and I guess there is no need for any updates. I can finish it in a few words: I was very busy!! Haha. Well, what can I say? I’ve been real busy and even now I’m just blogging to relax and put my studies behind just for a few minutes. I’ll be having my exams this week and the next week.

So after exams, I have three months break. But I’ll still be busy!! Haha. I’ve got my science project to do, and my special semester module to do, and not to forget, HS work to do!! We have a big production coming soon in August, for which preparations will start during this three months break.

Well, things are looking pretty clear and I’ve gained much knowledge about life and people during these times while I wasn’t able to blog and share them all with you. Haha. But this much is clear: It is very difficult to put in so much trust in someone, and at the end you don’t receive back what you’ve given and what you expect. It has been painful for me to take such disappointments in life and all I’ve been doing in reaction to that is crying.

Like my good friend once adviced me, crying is an expensive price to pay and that anyone who makes me cry is not worth thinking about! I believe totally in this and I’ve changed myself. I don’t trust and neither do I expect things from people anymore. I’ve decided to keep a distance with family, friends and working partners in my life, just so that I won’t be hurt anymore. I just want to be happy and make others happy. As I had previously said, my ultimate goal and wish in life to be an inspiration to all around me. When people think of me, they should think positively and say “Look at how she is! I want to be like her, so that I too will be happy like her.” I don’t want envy or enmity from people and I’ll avoid them as much as I can. I just want to help others as much as I can. People are just making it pretty hard for me by behaving dishonestly. Thus, I end up not trusting anyone. Sigh…

Another thing that had affected me was when all the efforts I put in a particular task go to waste!! That is the worst thing that can happen to a person. Eventhough the situation doesn’t go out of your hands, the pain is still there right? I mean, you have put in so much of effort!! Youhave actually put it in front of all your other tasks like studies, projects, and etc. And you have stayed up late at night till 2 or 3 or 4am and did a lot of work. You had stayed back in school at night the whole week and have been going home late at around 12am everyday in the week. And the result you get is not what you expected!! But the thing is, I’ve learned that efforts put in don’t go to waste anyway. He knows that I had put in the effort and even if I don’t get the results I expect, He’ll make sure I get the results in another way. Eventually, whatever the matter, I’ll get a chance to learn my mistakes and won’t repeat them again in my life.

Well, I’ve talked a lot for today. I don’t know when I will be blogging again. But yeah, I guess it’ll be after 6th May, that is the day of my last exam!! =)