Good days ahead I hope…

I don’t know why, but suddenly I’ve been thinking about this. Do good things come to those who wait? Or do they come to those who go looking for it? I have always been the one waiting. Maybe its time for me to go looking for good things instead of waiting for it to happen. This has become my primary resolution this year!

This is the year I will be spending in Australia and I want to make a good use of it. Because after this, I don’t know if I would get any such opportunity to be living alone in a new country. I don’t know what the future has in store for me 2013 onwards. But as with 2012, I am simply going to enjoy my life in Australia 🙂

So far, it has been a good start of the year and its been progressing very well. I feel emotionally stronger this year and I am happy too. Sure, good things have come to me while I have been waiting for the past 4 years! I have had a rough 4 years since the day I started my undergraduate studies in 2007. Huge amounts of workload in Uni, emotional downturns, stress, constant failures and loss of interest in studies… But none of them is happening this time, I am glad for it! The Uni life here in Sydney is much better! It makes me wonder sometimes if my life would have been different if I had been brought up here instead.

This year has so much to offer to me! I will wait till the end to find out if I want to stay here or leave to Singapore, my homeland!

Something good…

After a long time, I am beginning to feel peaceful and finding it easy to just sit back and enjoy life as it comes. I am really lucky to be feeling this way. I am exploring new places, having new experiences, and more importantly discovering myself through this journey, eventhough it is only a trip to study abroad. I am without any regrets today about making this choice. It makes me feel stupid about having to think of getting out of here last year! I guess everyone feels that way when they are out of their house for the first time in their life!

First post for 2012 :)

Wow… I can’t believe myself that it has been so long since I’ve written a post in this blog. I haven’t been busy, I admit it. I was just not in the mood to sit and write a post about all that is happening in my life right now. Too many things to talk about and bore the people reading my blog. So I have decided to write about 2011 in general and leave out the details to be divulged in a friendly chat with people I’m close to.

A new beginning… That is what we are all heading towards. But at the same time, we should not forget our past that has paved the way to our new beginning. 2011 has been an immensely satisfying year for me. The beginning was horrible. I was depressed about not defining my place in life. I was shocked at the revelation that my career was in a pit. But the situation improved during the middle of the year when I got into Macquarie University in Sydney to do a Masters in Accounting. I never thought I would be traversing this career path, but alas, here I am.

The last six months have been both sad and happy. Sad because I had to part with my dear family and friends. Happy because I was out there myself, exploring a new land, new people and new environment. This is the first time I travelled by myself, lived by myself and had a taste of that independence that I longed for. The only thing was that I wasn’t living off myself. I was being sponsored by my dad. Haha.

For 2012, I am looking forward to a great year as I will be spending all four seasons down south. I hope to travel to places I’ve longed to travel to, such as Melbourne, Brisbane, Tasmania, New Zealand, and Fiji… I hope to meet new people and make new friends. I do aim to excel in my career field as well. The first semester grades were extremely rewarding, thanks to God! I hope I can continue to do well that way, with God’s grace…

This year seems to be offering me with more opportunities in my life, I can see the entire year filled with activities and engagements. I hope to make full use of them for my interpersonal growth. Such and a lot more are my resolutions for the upcoming year 2012… 🙂

I have another week left in Singapore to spend a good amount of time with my family. I’ll be flying off to Sydney on the 9th of January. I wish that more things happen in my life this year, just like every girl wishes to happen, making it a year filled with meaning! 🙂 Happy New Year everyone!! Hope you have a prosperous year ahead!

Fireworks @ Marina Bay

(I would) Love to be in Love…

All of us have our dreams of our future life partner. We have many expectations. 

He should be a degree holder.
He should be an engineer.
He should be above 170cm in height.
He should be a Hindu.
He should be a ……..
So many expectations….
But when we meet the right person and fall in love, all those expectations just go to the bin. 
Such a love is unconditional.
Will I be lucky enough to experience it? 🙂

In Sydney!

My first post from Sydney. This post signifies that I have settled in well in Sydney and that is how I have the mood to blog! After more than a month’s time, first time I feel at ‘home’ here. It is amazing that I went through this transformation from being excited to depressed and finally attaining normalcy, fairly quickly. Usually it would take people longer. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t miss home! I do miss all of them a lot! But now, they have become more of a pleasant memory than a longing to be with them.
What I would share to prospective students going to study abroad, away from their home country, would be to only go to a country, in which they know someone, be it a friend or relative, is residing. This has been a great help for me! Especially when this is my first time parting with my family for a long period of time. But the experience is worth it. It is good to be independent, and we have to learn it in a hard way. I feel I’ve underestimated my ability to leave my friends and family and live away from them, after coming here. But I thank God for having made me get over it soon. Also, thanks for Macquarie University! The workload itself was enough to keep me busy 🙂
The units I am taking this semester are: Economic Analysis, Quantitative Methods, Principles of Accounting and Business Law. All challenging subjects, but also pretty basic! Econs is interesting, especially for a beginner like me. Although my friends who have studied Econs have no interest in it. QM is basically stats, which I am very familiar with, so no problem there 🙂 Accounting unit is interesting and I’ve started doing my debits and credits, haha… And finally the Biz Law! Toughest subject of all the units I am taking this Sem. Lots and lots of cases to remember and memorise! Not to mention the legal jargon, having to study about the Australian legal system… Its pretty similar to Singapore, but there are differences too. All in all, the units are interesting, which is what is keeping me go on…
I hope to blog regularly. I wish I can, let’s see if time permits me to do so.

My Last Night in Singapore for this year

The title might seem like as though it is some Last Supper thing. But it is nothing like that at all. It is just that, for the first time in my life, I am leaving my family for a long period of time and going overseas. It is a totally mixed experience of both sadness and the pending happiness and excitement. 

I expect to be coming back for vacation only next year, therefore, the title is as such. Because tomorrow night I will be flying aboard A380 somewhere over the Indian ocean. Sadness sets in when the feeling of a loss of physical presence of my loved ones sets in. Although I know that I will still be communicating with them over phone or skype, I feel sad because it is not the same as talking to my mum or dad or sis in person. 

However, this sadness will last only for a while, until I set foot in Australia. Home sickness will be there. But I hope the excitement will soon take over. 

Today was really memorable because the experience I had when I went to the Sithi Vinayagar Temple today was ecstatic. The moment I entered the Temple, I was so overwhelmed with feelings suddenly and tears were pouring out of my eyes non-stop! I don’t know why I had such an experience. Maybe it was because I felt the presence of God and His assurance that He will be there for me always. I was very happy after that. It was The best prayer I ever had in a Temple environment! I will take it as a blessing offered to me by the God.

I will keep blogging, I hope. For friends who will be missing me, and who will also be missed a lot, I will always keep in touch online. My online presence will always be there no matter where I am in this world 🙂

Bye and Wish Me Luck Dear Friends!! 🙂 Sydney… Here I come 🙂

Saying goodbye is tough

Parting from family and friends is difficult. Its going to be a very tough two weeks for me as I say goodbyes to people near and dear to me. Granted that I will come back after six months, it still feels really hard to say goodbye. There is this gnawing feeling deep in my heart that things are changing and will never be the same again. 

Saying goodbye has also taught me how much I have taken my friends and family for granted. For the past 24 years they were with me, I never once longed for them. But now when I think of parting away from them, it really makes me realize this truth. It also makes me feel a little handicapped. I hope I can say a proper goodbye and after all, I’ll be back in January… 🙂

Macquarie University – Flying in July :)

The more I get to know about Macquarie University and Sydney, the more I am excited about going to Australia! It is simply amazing that such a dramatic change is happening in my life at this point of time. Two months ago, I was nowhere in life. Now I am at least somewhere. I am glad I am not undecided about my future, and that is a feeling I don’t want anyone to feel. It is the most confusing point of time in your life, that moment when you simply don’t know what to do in your life. But the moment you come out of this feeling and face the world with a hard-built conviction to follow a particular path you like very much, that is the moment you don’t want to forget. 

I am glad to have chosen Macquarie University. It is an amazing place and a pretty good university in Australia (ranked 9th). Its business faculty is way better than the one in University of Sydney. I got offers from both the universities but I chose Macquarie because of this reason alone. Also because of the cost, USYD was charging way too much for the tuition fees. Macquarie was okay for us.

After the offer arrived from MQ, everything else happened very quickly. I got my student visa within a week. I got my accommodation too within a week. That was real fast actually. This is cool… I feel very excited to go to Sydney. From what I saw on google map, it looks like an amazing place, calm and full of greenery. The climate too is not really extreme, it is a temperate climate. But I heard that July is its coldest month. And that is another thing about Australia. Their summer is December to February actually…

This is what my room might look like (but I will post actual pictures once I reach Sydney).

Amazing right? I got the East side apartment in the Macquarie University Village. I might be checking in there on the 20th or 21st of July. That means I will be leaving Singapore on the 19th of July. The prospect of leaving my family and everything else dear to me is daunting. But at the same time, the thought and the possibility of coming back to Singapore next year in January for a month is comforting. Not to mention the technology that has shrunk the world. My best friend in Sydney is going to be Skype…
There are some secrets that are best if remained as secrets. Once they are out, your whole outlook in life changes. Many times this week I’ve felt like this world is going nowhere good. This feeling has not decreased but keeps increasing everyday.

First time in my life, I don’t feel proud at all. I feel deeply disgusted. My whole body is shrivelling with shame. It is not a nice feeling to hear such blatant truths about a person whom you have respected all along in your life. It is simply disgusting!! I hope that person gets what he deserves!!

Free Will? Destiny?

The idea of destiny working to bring you to a particular place at a particular time is really amazing. Although at first thought it seems like impossible, one’s experience itself teaches one that there is such a thing as fate/destiny/something that is pre-determined. It is beautiful and yet scary too. 

From the moment we are born, the environment we grow up in determines our circle of free will. This circle of free will is as big as the amount of knowledge we acquire about the different choices in life. If lets say in all the colours we only know about yellow, red, blue and green, then our choice is limited to only these four colours. Whereas the more colours we know the more choices we have. Therefore, there is always a limit to the circle of free will we have. Most of the time our circle of free will is pre-determined by the limitations in the environment we grow up in. Therefore, free will is really a misnomer!

Such being the case, our choices in life are really pre-determined. It “seems” as though we are making a choice out of our free will, but our choices itself are limited in a certain way. Many things we do in our lives, our likes and dislikes, our temperament, our natural tendencies have all been pre-determined. Nothing can really happen with our own choice. We cannot even determine when we will fall asleep. All we can do is ready the bed and lie on it. Sleep will come but we cannot control when and how it comes. Such is our life. Life is nothing but realizing this grand truth, that things are not always in our hands or in our control! 

This idea, which at first seemed very romantic and beautiful, now seems to be daunting. It makes us think that we cannot change our future at all. Though our choices are limited and pre-determined, we still have that “free will” with which we can still make a choice between what is good and bad or right and wrong! But many times we are pushed to make a choice that is agreeable to all, but not in alignment with our innate temperament or nature. For example, a woman whose talent and interest lies in dancing has to “choose” to forego her dream in completing a degree in fine arts in order to attain a degree in engineering. A degree in engineering will “secure” her future compared to a degree in fine arts which will not yield financially. Now where is the choice in that? Seems like something pre-determined right?

Krishna in Bhagavad Gita says in Chapter 2, Verse 47: You have the right to perform your actions but not to the results of your actions. How very true! This verse does not tell you that you should not expect any results at all. It only tells you that the results cannot be influenced by you. This is just like sleeping. You can only make your bed and lie on it. The result (i.e. sleeping) is not in your control. You cannot say that 10 seconds from the moment you lie on your bed you will fall asleep with certainty. The result is not in our hands. But the action is.